• 1:00 PM, 12.12.07
back from pasir ris. after some things, finally managed to help the 301 people check in. at first suggested going to arcade while waiting and i got shot down by shikai because apparently, i suck at dota. :/ totally no link but whatever, fine manzx. so we all just stoned there until john's mom came. then after check in i went over to say bye to the 301 peeps but before i could really say bye to everyone kelvin tay shooed me away after saying bye. sort of like, "hey, you finished what you came here to do. i don't really have any use for you anymore, okay, bye now." after that i got really emo, and walked away without saying bye to the rest. then i kept thinking about how this reminded me of how people discard their toys once they're finished playing with them. fine, i think i'm the only retarded person who would make her way from clementi all the way to pasir ris to help out people who don't appreciate it at all. after i walked a fair bit, i realised that i didn't collect the money for the chalet yet. seriously contemplated whether i should just go ahead and go home because i really didn't want to go back and find out that everyone thinks the same way as kelvin tay. but then i realised that if i didn't get the money then my mother would absolutely slaughter me so i made my way back where surprisingly i got the money without much hassle and some people actually thanked me. so that made me feel just a tad better. otw home from pasir ris, i started thinking about how other people wouldn't have done this. and i figured out how absolutely stupid i was to have rushed so much to ensure that they would check in on time. i actually wore the too small shoes because i thought i was late, and i got blisters for my trouble. i didn't bother to take out my umbrella cause i thought it was a waste of time and i chionged all the way to mrt, now i'm sneezing like mad. i didn't bother to walk slowly on the slippery road and i tripped. and they repay me by shooing me away. haha, i must either be the most dumb or the most naive person in the whole wide world. i didn't even ask for anything in return for helping them book and check in, and then, ah fook, writing about it makes me sadder, so i shall stop. bye blog.ps, jingying. the waiting and stuff isn't your fault. i didn't really think too much about the waiting. you, yeeni and shikai did a fantastic job of planning the chalet so don't be too down. i know you won't really see this till like friday, or maybe you won't see it at all but yeah, stop feeling so guilty kay. cheer up.
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oh yes, i forgot. chaypioh's mother can't make it for sunday i think. so now we're in the same situation that 301 was in, except that there is no john's mother to come help us check in. and here i was, thinking that helping 301 would have good karma, then it would mean that 303's chalet would be a success. whoever said that "hao ren you hao bao" must be the biggest liar in the universe, or the most deluded person ever.
I'm up to my ankles and I'm drowning anyway in a sea
of sarcastic faces,
familiar places.
Everything looks quite the same here.
It's all confusingly amusing.
Bitter and tainted the picture you painted to me.
